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What do you think this is, Lily? [She wants to scream, still. But... Lily is doing a lot to help temper her anger, mostly at herself.] I've been throwing myself at the wall... for so long. I've just wanted to put everything into this. Even at my own expense. The student council, breaking my ankle, fighting on a broken ankle, going into the Sage trap... everything was because I can't sit idly by. So... maybe I'm too reckless.

But I... I know that. I always have. I fully e-expected it would find me, someday. [She looks at Lily, her gaze hard.] Then it found you. I was so scared. I can't even say how bad it was. I- for days, I told myself that was it. No more heroics. I'd go home and just be normal, if it kept you from getting hurt again. I don't do this for myself, Lily. I do it for other people. For you. That's why I don't really think of it in those terms. I... I am willing to take so many risks, for my important people. I have to teach myself not to. That we c-can do it together. That... I can't say "nobody else" and then get into trouble. "Nobody else" has to include me, or it doesn't mean anything.

I'm scared, too. I think I will be, for a long time. But I have to believe that... there's more than just running myself into the ground. Everything will be okay. We'll make it happen. With you... we'll keep moving forward, no matter what. Right?

[ Lily finds her eyes misting up a little herself, but... that's fine. She doesn't stop it, and somehow manages to not flinch a bit throughout it all. Because it's too important here and now to really back down. ]

You are a little reckless, and... I've always known you do it for other people. For those you care about, and everyone else. I've said more than once, that's the thing which inspired me, more than any memories I received. Haven't I? That... still remains, and knowing you, I'd like to think that isn't going anywhere...

I can't say I'm much different, can I? I sort of proved that, with how I ended up. Had it been reversed, we'd probably be on opposite sides of this conversation, but... It'd probably be pretty similar. [ She manages a slightly wry smile, in spite of everything. ] Although with as stubborn as you can be, I might've had a harder time keeping you in bed. It would have been almost tempting, too... to just ignore all of those dangers, to just stay in with you every day, and yet... we've seen no matter what we do, they'll come to us anyway

But yes, you're right. You and I are going to be a team for much, much longer than I'd hope we'll be fighting all these things, Winter... This isn't the first road bump we'll hit, but I feel like... no matter how scared either of us are, no matter what we run into. From here on, if we can take that on together... I don't think anything can stop us, Winter. Not for long, anyway.

Mm, I remember that. But... no. I and my bullheadedness aren't going anywhere. I'll be right here, as long as you want me to be. And I don't m-mind that you're going to be the same way if something happens to me. I... now that I'm used to having people around, I need that contact. I need someone to be there for me to talk to, to touch, to tell me it'll be okay. So I'm c-counting on that.

So... please stay with me, whatever happens. Even if I scream, or I walk out before I do something I'll regret, or we can't agree, or I panic and run away... I'll always come back. I can go anywhere, and do anything. I just... [She manages to smile a little, her face coloring.] I just need you.

Well, seeing as how I don't ever want it that you're not here... So, it's time I took my own advice, isn't it? [ Just briefly, she leans her head towards Winter's, her lips making contact in a brief kiss. Extremely brief, but the message should be clear enough - that the contact she's talking about is there. ] I kept saying everything would be okay, and... it will be. I've relied on you so much this past month, so... I need to make sure I can give all the same support to you when I need to. When we both need it.

[ She hugs her a little closer. ] I've said the same thing, haven't I? To do all of this, and more than that, everything I want to do beyond this... I need you, too. I want to be able to share everything else, too. Everything that has nothing to do with all of this danger and fighting, the things we'll have to look forward to when it's over. We just... have to work together to make sure we get there, right?

[Winter's face goes even more red at the sudden attack.] Y-yes... right. It's not that you've been relying on me, so much as I've been hovering, but we'll go with that for now.

[She shakes her head, leaning into Lily and trying not to worry so much.] Right. Together. Whatever happens, wherever we go, whatever has to be done. Whether it's us h-having to fight something, or going on a date, or something stupid like we tend to do... it'll be okay.

So I guess I just need to figure out what to do from here. Do we... go back on the road? Go back to Las Vegas and try to figure out what's going on? Or do we stay here a while longer and make sure you're ready to go again? I don't want to... make the wrong decision on this and have something happen again.

[ If nothing else, Lily takes this as a good opportunity to rest her head against Winter's. ] Hovering or not, I have been relying on you. I'm almost starting to feel a little selfish, expecting you here all the time, but...

[ She draws in a breath, thinking on the questions. ]

That's... something we need to figure out, isn't it? [ A sigh. ] Things seem to keep increasing in intensity out there, but... they are here too. [ She frowns. ] Whatever's behind that monster car, those blackouts, that will have to be dealt with, but... there are so many more of us here than there... The big problem is.

[ She tilts her head to one side, and pulls back just enough to be able to look Winter in the eye. ] There's no way Dad's going to let Jasmine go back, not right now. [ And in her thoughts, she's thinking it's probably a bad idea for Jasmine to go back after what that resulted in. ]

I'm the one that's being selfish. I have a home. I have parents that... probably want to see me more than they do. But I spend all my time, and more than a few of my nights, here. It's in-incredibly selfish, but it helps me sleep, and it's what I want, if I'm being honest.

As for our plans... I don't know. There are so many more of us here, but even a few more of us may not make a difference to anything that attacks out there. Not if it's only us. And you're right that Jasmine can't come along if we go. I wouldn't want her to. That's an argument for staying anyway... I still need to make sure she does okay this summer. I took responsibility for that, and I'll see it through.

[ Lily starts to open her mouth to object, but refrains. There's a certain weight - among the many other weighty things they've thrown out in the past couple minutes - to Winter saying that which takes a couple moments to catch up to her. A the least, that makes it time for her cheeks to heat up. ] If that's what you want, then I guess I'm okay if you want to be a little selfish...

[ She clears her throat, trying to compose herself. ] Ei-either way, it's my responsibility too. I have to make sure she does well just as much. And... we can't just go there without a plan of some sort, can we? Just wandering around didn't net us anything to begin with...

[ To say nothing of the only thing Lily did come home from Vegas with, but that doesn't need to be stated. ]

Edited (fixing one icon since I sort of broke everything. whoops.) 2014-07-15 01:17 (UTC)

[Winter frowns, but... they've already had that discussion.] No, it didn't. We can't go without some idea of what we're doing again, and Jasmine has to come first. We already have enough problems, and I don't want to have to worry about that, too.

So, with that said... I don't think there's any reason for us to go back yet. We can be more useful here, right now. I have a lot more work to do to get my confidence back up, but... that's not really important now. For now, I just need to know that we're planning to stay, and you're ready for whatever happens. That I'm ready.

That's settled then, isn't it? For now, at least - we'll do what we can here, and... See what happens.

[ A hand comes up to Winter's cheek, and she manages a smile. It's light, but it's there. ] Your confidence is important, however. That and whatever it is you want or need is important, if not to you, then to me. Remember that at least, okay? So whatever it is we face, whatever we do... I'll find a way to be ready.

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