[Ever since the incident in Las Vegas, Winter had spent a lot of time just... staring into space. Looking at her hands. At Raquel. At her Loveads. At herself. Trying to see if there's something there worth fighting for. She's been quiet, though she's still responsive to Lily, and to Jasmine - they're too close for her to shut them out willingly. And maybe some little part of her is hoping one of them will drag her out of her funk. Get her moving again.
Neil... she'd said some things, yesterday. She'd felt the fire rekindle, just a little. It wasn't like she ever stopped wanting to do the things that she'd set out to do. She'd just... been discouraged. Badly, certainly. But it'd happened before. When she'd been fired. When she'd gotten Lily hurt. And now this, when she still hadn't really gotten over the last one. But could she really just... stop? Could she do that and not feel like she was abandoning everything that drove her?
She'd said she was a vessel for happiness. That she was happy when she could protect people. That she had things she couldn't sacrifice. Were those... things she could give up without becoming someone she wasn't?
Lily's voice draws her out of her thoughts, and she shakes herself lightly.]
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Neil... she'd said some things, yesterday. She'd felt the fire rekindle, just a little. It wasn't like she ever stopped wanting to do the things that she'd set out to do. She'd just... been discouraged. Badly, certainly. But it'd happened before. When she'd been fired. When she'd gotten Lily hurt. And now this, when she still hadn't really gotten over the last one. But could she really just... stop? Could she do that and not feel like she was abandoning everything that drove her?
She'd said she was a vessel for happiness. That she was happy when she could protect people. That she had things she couldn't sacrifice. Were those... things she could give up without becoming someone she wasn't?
Lily's voice draws her out of her thoughts, and she shakes herself lightly.]
I'm here... is everything okay?